eaglemoon raes: Inspiration

Free Will
Eaglemoon Raes

I walk between
The worlds
I dance
I shake
I rattle
I merge with the rhythms of the Earth
I resonate
I expand
I intuit
I merge with the rhythms of the Universe
A tree of life
with roots firmly planted
In the rich moist soil of my mother’s womb
Branches reaching upward toward my father’s loving embrace
Content in Who I Am
At peace with the energies which move through me
Accepting free will,
Re-joy-fully,
As the best birth day present.

© Copyrighted by Eaglemoon Raes 2001

Let it all Out

Dear child,

Let it all out-
Move – sing – dance – shout
Allow it all to flow.
Colors!
Light!
Sound!
Rhythm!
Waves and waves of movement
Ride the waves,
Flow with the rapids
Merge with the particles of water.
Resist not, for in the resisting is the pain.
Allow the body to slowly stretch
into flexibility
limberness
Reach
Stretch
Fluidity in motion.
Bend
And bridge the gap between Souls
Reach out
Touch
Feel all beings on the earth
Embrace
And sob for lack of memory.
Allow the children to touch your heart
For when you do
You will remember more and more of who you are.
Have faith in the love and the light.

© Copyrighted by Eaglemoon Raes 2002

Are You Home sick?



When we first went to Washington I wanted to take my kids to the Olympic Peninsula, to the rainforest. When we got to the west side of the mountain, between the Pacific Ocean and the mountain, I became very claustrophobic. I was surprised by my response; trouble breathing, anxious, and jittery. When we finally drove south, beyond the mountain, I thought, “thank God, now we can go home”. But you see “home” was in Connecticut, even though I was staying at my sister and brother-in-law’s and had been there for only 2 days before setting out for this little adventure their home had become my known – i.e. home. I realized I was homesick.

My spirit guide explained to me that being “homesick” is a common unconscious feeling that many hold. Not necessarily homesick for a physical dwelling but for their spiritual home, heaven, the light, whatever their idea of this known location of love, comfort, and peace. I understood that many people make choices that aren’t necessarily life enhancing perhaps to hasten their time on earth. This isn’t a conscious action, of course, but my hunch is that most addictions stem from this unconscious desire to “go home”, “to blow Dodge”, “to get the heck out of here”…

Remember how you felt at summer camp? It was fun and all, but in the background of those quiet moments was a longing to be back in the comfort of the familiar. As much as many of us have the desire to live, to be alive, we also have the resistance to living, to truly being alive too.

Over the years I’ve been exploring this idea with my clients. Once I share my own story, my clients are ready and able to admit their own longing to go home. Through EFT and exploring the desire and the resistance to being alive, being in a body, etc my clients have been able to make tremendous change in their lives. Once we admit we’re homesick, once we’re aware of it, the rest is cake.

My journey started at a fork in the road between motherhood and career woman. At the time, I believed somebody else was pulling my puppet strings and chose the twisting and turning muddy road toward Mom-dom for me. Now, after several years of scraping mud off my boots, I realized it was I who chose the often rocky, steep climb home to motherhood. It was the whole I, not just this physical mass of energy, but also the mental, emotional, and spiritual ME, that I’ve come to love and embrace. Looking back down the long winding road I can see that I was never alone but was expertly guided along the trail, with love and appreciation, by a force greater than myself to my own awakening.

Years ago, when I first started hanging out with my husband, he was building a deck on the house he rented. One day I was helping him nail down the decking and a quick vision came to me that we would marry and build a house together. “Yeah, right”, I thought, “I’m not going to marry him. He’s a geek.” I brushed this notion aside and forgot about it for years.

One day, five years later, while nailing plywood to what would someday be my kitchen floor I remembered my vision of long ago. A strange but peaceful feeling came over me. A knowing that all was well and that I was in the right place with the right person. It was like a check in point to make sure everyone was present and accounted for before the trek could begin.

Before my first pregnancy I was in a constant state of struggle. I was full of anger, resentment, and played the role of victim expertly. I spent years blanketing my feelings and emotions with alchohal. Once I became pregnant and chose to stop drinking my life began to unfold, my inner being could finally get through to me and my journey began. Let me tell you though, I didn’t always go willingly!

Over the years I’ve learned that my 3 children had important life lessons to teach me, as do all of our children. These are some they’ve taught me…

Live

My son taught me about living passionately. I discovered that if people were resisting being fully alive they had difficulty being with him. He loved to experience everything. How far could he climb, what is over that hill, and around that corner, where are the limits and the breaking points of every object in the house, and what would happen if I threw this at that? He was curious and wanted to figure out his world, and he did it with great delight.

Each morning I would get him out of his crib he would say, “Mommy isn’t it a beautiful day.” He spoke early and could tell you whole stories at 20 months old. One day it was raining, and he said with that ever so sweet smile, “Mommy, isn’t it a beautiful day?” and in my negative cranky mood, I replied, “beautiful day? No it’s raining.” This is a “mommy moment” I deeply regret because he never asked me again after that. And he remembered it too! When he was older I asked him where the boy was who would ask every morning, “Mommy, isn’t it a beautiful day?”

He said, “Do you know why I stopped?”

“Why?”

“Because one morning you told me it wasn’t a beautiful day, it was raining.”

Yikes!

When he was four years old I witnessed him pulling his two-wheeler up on to the platform of our homemade slide. The ladder was made from 2 X 4s at about a 45-degree angle to the platform. He decided to ride down the ladder. Now, I just listened to a tape by Abraham Hicks that explained that kids are capable of doing amazing things if the mom isn’t in the way saying “Johnny you get down from there, you’re going to fall and break your neck.” I knew I could either run outside and instill fear in him, “what are you nuts you could fall and break your neck”, or watch. It wasn’t easy, but I decided to stay inside and watch. Not only did he ride down the ladder and land it, but he then rode down the slide and landed that too!

He’s sixteen now and rides motor-cross. He flies through the air at great speeds with great height. He’s active and alive. He’s an incredible athlete. And a joy to watch live! He’s been one of my greatest teachers, teaching me more than he could ever know, not all of it pleasant, but definitely worthwhile!

Love

My daughter, my first-born, taught me about love. Her heart is huge. She’s generous, kind and compassionate. She taught me about unconditional love.

When she was young everybody loved being with her. She made everybody, and I mean everybody, feel good. She was loving, open hearted, non-judgmental and gentle. Not many people resist love, especially from a child, so she was always held, embraced, nurtured and nourished.

When she was an infant she could see right into your soul. Many people experienced this. Even people who weren’t “new agey” or spiritual would express, “Look at her eyes, I feel like she’s looking right into my soul”!

I’m going to sound like a horrible mom, but hear me out. When she was a baby I didn’t want to have a thumb-sucking child. In my family, this was a huge deal. My cousins had prongs put into their mouths to stop them from sucking their thumbs. I sucked my fingers until I was way too old by many standards, seventeen! So I had some judgment on this subject. We decided to give her a “tooti” (pacifier) and at 4 she gave it up! Boy was I relieved…until she began sucking her thumb at five!

Another issue I resisted was having an over weight child. I didn’t want her ridiculed and quite frankly, I didn’t want people to think I was a bad mom. Well, for a while when she was young she became overweight. You see, this was part of my unconditional love lesson. Imagine that somebody loves you so much (on a soul level) that they are willing to create life situations that would help you learn and grow even if they might be uncomfortable along the way. In my heart I know that my daughter was supporting me in my journey by teaching me to surrender judgment and to just love and appreciate life as it is.


Laugh

My final child has taught me about laughter; taking life lightly and letting go of the seriousness of living. I’m still working on this one, but am moving forward nonetheless.

You see, seriousness is what glues us to life struggle. I was confused between living a sacred life and a serious one. A part of me thought that being spiritual and living a spiritual life was serious business but I’ve finally come to understand that being Source is de-light-ful ~ full of light. When we delight in life we let go of resistance and we live lightly appreciating all that is as it is without judgment. Appreciation is the essence that allows us to fully experience and move through life with ease.

I was also confusing Power versus Force. Power is our inner essence; love, joy, peace, harmony, balance, rhythm and much much more. It is living as Source, Creator of it all. Force, for me, is living from the viewpoint of the ego (fear), forcing life to happen according to my limited perspective. I was fighting with life, beating myself up, resisting life as it was, and being mad that things weren’t going my way. I was behaving like a Forty-five-year-old two-year-old, having one temper tantrum after another. Life for me was exhausting not enlivening.

I’ve resisted laughter. When I was growing up, I was often laughed at. Sarcasm wasn’t fun. My cousins and siblings were brutal. At family gatherings they would select a sacrificial lamb then gang up on and pick them apart. I learned quickly to “laugh at or be laughed at”. I didn’t feel good wherever I sat, in the outer circle laughing, or in the inner circle cringing all alone. I decided to laugh at myself, knock myself down, before anybody else could do it for me. Where was the joy in the laughter?

My husband was a different story. He would laugh at my foibles but I could feel his appreciation for me. I didn’t become self-conscious or cringe. Over time, I learned to laugh at myself without judgment, or ridicule but with enjoyment.

So…now what would I say about laughter? What comes to mind is the expression, “I laugh in the face of danger”. (Who said this?) When we laugh in the face of danger, we are delighting in life, recognizing and completely trusting that all is truly well regardless of what we are facing. It’s part of the Cosmic Roller Coaster.

Do you like roller coasters? I love them! On my forty-fourth birthday I went on the Mind Eraser, a roller coaster that scared me silly seven years ago. I decided to go it alone and hopped on the ride. The ride ended thirty-four seconds later. I thought, “You can’t be serious! My life is more thrilling than this!”

So…I laugh in the face of danger, eventually!

Years ago, I was on a cross-country trip and my RV wouldn’t start on the day we were heading home. I had to call AAA for help. I prayed for the perfect person to come help me and this is what happed…the Cliff note verson…

The perfect tow guy said, “It’s your Neutral Safety Switch, mam. It’s reading that you’re in drive rather than in park so it won’t start but once you put it in to neutral you’ll be all set.”

Who would have imagined. My neutral safety switch!

As I was driving toward US 70 I thought, “What would I need to learn from this.”

My spirit guide explained, “As much as you want to go home you equally have as much resistance.”

To which I responded, “you’re nuts why wouldn’t I want to go home?”

“Think about it.”

So I did, and spirit was right, I did have resistance. Spirit explained, “as long as you have desire, you equally have as much resistance, unless you’re in neutral you will never move forward.” As I heard these words in my head, I was turning onto US70 east, and in front of me was a yellow, diamond sign that said, “Eagle’s on the Road”. Have you ever seen a sign like this? Sure enough, I was on the road. And, the wild ride home was about to get wilder! Every time I felt fear or resistance I would step into neutral and move forward.

Over the years I’ve been exploring this idea with my clients. Once I share my own story, my clients are ready and able to step into neutral. Through EFT and exploring the desire and the resistance to being alive, being in a body, etc my clients have been able to make tremendous change in their lives. For a diagram of the tapping points please go to www.emofree.com

“Stepping into Neutral” can be applied to any situation. Lets use Success as an example.

Tap on Karate Chop and say:

Even though I don’t feel successful I accept who I am.
Even thought I don’t believe I’m successful, I am choosing to have fun succeeding.
Even though there’s a part of me that wants to succeed, there’s a part of me that doesn’t, and I’m in conflict. I am choosing to resolve my conflict so I can step into neutral moving into a new life full of success and enjoyment.

I’m a loser (eyebrow)
No, I’m not! (side of eye)
Yes, I am (under eye)
I can’t do any thing right (under nose)
Yes I can (chin)
I can’t believe I’m such an idiot (collar bone)
If only I had listened to ________ (under arm)
But if I listened to ME and everything is all right (top of head)

Tap in the positive:

I have all the attributes of success within ME (eyebrow)
I can do it if I decide to (side of eye)
My attention is focused on my goal (under eye)
I am confident in my ability to move forward (under nose)
I do it with ease (chin)
Life is a fun and exciting adventure (under arm)
I allow myself to appreciate life and to fully enjoy it (top of head)

I found this poem hidden in my computer years after it was written. I remember this dark night so well...perhaps you have felt this way at one point.

A Slow Death
By
Eaglemoon Raes

I lie in the dark of early morning
Husband snoring deeply beside me
Heavy in his sleep
I toss about uncertain of my place in the world
Unclear of the purpose of my existence
Tears flow on to my pillow
I am dying here
I can feel worms eating my flesh
Decomposing the parts of me that have died long ago
A walking corpse I’ve been
There is nothing left of me
I’ve withered
My will to live is gone
The mortgage, the house, the bills, the lives of my children
Have all had more meaning than my life
How did I get here?
Surrounded by resentment
Where is the love?
Where is the life?
Where is the laughter?
I cannot continue
I surrender
White flags whipping in the breeze
The baby cries
Oh God, I have to wake up
I rise
“I am here for you” I feel her say
“I am here for you too”
We nurse
My heart opens
Oh, I see
Here is the love
Here is the life
Here is the laughter…

My son was trying to get a handle on life and death one day and he said to me, “So… life if kinda like a vacation, when it’s all over you go home.” I thought this was brilliant. I decided this would be my new mantra. If I get stressed I just say to myself, “Wait a minute! I’m on vacation. Why am I getting so worked up”?

What is in the word “Laugh”?
by Eaglemoon Raes

Joy! Fun!
To laugh is to live in joy
To laugh is to bring love into your life
To laugh is to connect with the flow
Of pure positive energy
The unconditional flow of love energy
The flow of universal life force.
Find joy,
Laugh, and you will always be connected
To the source of love.
Laugh and you will find all that you want in life
Laugh and you will attract all that is good
Laugh and you will find peace
Laugh and you will allow
More laughter
More goodness
More joy
More joyous people
More of what you want
into your life.
You will be connected with all that is good in the world.
You will have an unlimited flow of love into your life
You will be able to channel greater amounts of love
To all around you.
You will find more health
You will find greater joy
You will find such happiness that you couldn’t even imagine
You will find such joy …
such appreciation …
for All That Is.

© 1998 Eaglemoon Raes

What is in the word “Love”?
by Eaglemoon Raes

Love is the most powerful energy of the Universe.
When we love somebody,
truly love them
without imposing our judgments
or certain conditions,
if we truly love somebody…
We set them free.
We set them free to live life.
We set them free to love.
We set them free to laugh with such joy.
We set them free to really experience life to the fullest,
With security
With strong self esteem
With a sense of Self.

© 1998 Eaglemoon Raes

What is in the word “Live”?
by Eaglemoon Raes

Take care of your body,
all of them
experience all that is in life
“experience life to the fullest”.
Dance in the stars
Find joy in life,
Live your life,
Do what you feel is right,
Make mistakes and learn by them,
Live Life.
Let the Life Force flow through you
Allow yourself to be open to all that is
Allow the flow of energy always,
Live, live, live.
“Be on Earth”
“Live in the moment”
“Live each moment like it’s your last”
These are all trite clichés
but they all mean the same thing …
Live Life!
Don’t squander your life away
Be One with All That Is.

© 1998 Eaglemoon Raes

Live, Love, and Laugh
by Eaglemoon Raes

Live
Love
Laugh
These are three small words
but they are the key
To living a spiritual life in the physical plane.
Master these three words
and you will literally fly
You will soar
You will be uplifted to such great heights.
Master these three words
And you will find such peace
You will uplift many
You will find your true power.
Your presence would be felt in a more expansive radius.
Your center of influence will expand.
You will find tremendous peace.
Allow yourself to fly
Allow yourself to sit
Upon the mountain
And Live,
Love,
and Laugh.
Be free my friend,
Be limitless,
Expand
and give yourself permission
To Fly

© 1998 Eaglemoon Raes

It takes courage to grow up and turn out to be who you really are.
— e.e. cummings

I'm not afraid of storms for I'm learning how to sail my ship.
— Louisa May Alcott, Author & Women's Activist (1832-1888)

Man cannot discover new oceans unless he has the courage to lose sight of the shore.
— Andre Gide, French Author (1869-1951)

Fear comes from uncertainty. When we are absolutely certain, whether of our worth or worthlessness, we are almost impervious to fear.
— William Congreve

What worries you, masters you.
— Haddon W. Robinson

"Come to the edge," He said. They said, "We are afraid." "Come to the edge," He said. They came. He pushed them ... and they flew.
— Guillaume Apollinaire

Courage is being scared to death — and saddling up anyway.
— John Wayne

Courage is not the absence of fear, but rather the judgment that something else is more important than fear.
— Ambrose Redmoon

Within each of us is a hidden store of energy. Energy we can release to compete in the marathon of life. Within each of us is a hidden store of courage, courage to give us the strength to face any challenge. Within each of us is a hidden store of determination. Determination to keep us in the race when all seems lost.
— Roger Dawson